"YOU MOTHERFUCKING BITCH YOU PIECE OF SHIT"

 After so long I've not been to any sets, it was last night. The night that I prayed to God to keep me away from harm and evil, to let things go smoothly, to keep me away from any evil eyes. Even recited Al-Fatihah before getting out from the car. 

10.37PM, I stepped in to the venue. Saw her, walked over to her and introduced myself. “Hi, I’m Alina” and smiled. She looked at me as though she knew me, but I couldn’t really figure out who she was so I just kept quiet. One of the first things she said to me was “Wah, bulu mata dia panjang betul, takut aku tengok”. She said it in a nice way, a friendly way. All I did was smiled. 

Sat down with her, to show her the dresses I brought. She was busy. I looked at her face as she was busy typing on her phone. She looked so familiar, as though i’ve seen her somewhere before and she really looked like that wardrobe bitch that I shouted at in public.

That WAS her. How I knew? I asked her if she’s the casting producer or what. And she said she’s a makeup artist, and she does wardrobe too. Then she saw that same pink dress I brought. She knew exactly it’s me. And I knew that that’s her. We had a really heated argument because she was being a real bitch with me previously from another set. It was Ramadan and she really tested my patience.

I was fasting and so was she. “YOU MOTHERFUCKING BITCH YOU PIECE OF SHIT”, was what I said when I shouted at her. I have never shouted at someone so loud and crude in public before. What happened between us previously was not mentioned by me or her at all last night. But I can tell that she already knew who I was the moment I sent her my picture before coming to the venue.

God was really testing me last night. It would definitely beat the purpose of me praying for everything to go smoothly if I didn’t keep my mouth shut and suddenly start some drama. God is Great. God works in mysterious ways, mysterious ways to even test our patience.

I remember after the incident, I told myself if I ever see her again I’m gonna fucking beat her up like how I almost did during the incident. But I didn’t, as I said, it’ll beat the entire purpose of me seeking for help from God to let things go smoothly that night. It was all just positive that night, even though I dislike looking at her face.