I am Alina Hazeman.

 Sometimes I find myself sittin' back and reminiscing Especially when I have to watch other people kissing And I remember when you started callin' me your Mrs All the play fighting, all the flirtatious disses I tell you sad stories about my childhood I don't know why I trusted you, but I knew that I could We'd spend the whole weekend lying in our own dirt I was just so happy in your boxers and your t-shirt Dreams, dreams Of when we had just started things (If you just wanted to pull over here, actually) ('Cause I think it would be better if I just walked the rest of the way) (Thank you) And it seems, it seems That I can't shake those memories I wonder if you have the same dreams too? The littlest things that take me there I know it sounds lame, but it's so true I know it's not right, but it seems unfair That things are reminding me of you Sometimes I wish we could just pretend Even if for only one weekend So come on, tell me, is this the end?

 Had to end it because I'm an idiot. Not just an idiot, but FUCKING STUPID IDIOT for making the mistake for than twice, not just thrice, but more. Oh God in you only I believe. I'm clearer with what I want, and I want to stay true to only you and to my future man.  I'm not sorry for ending it and you do not have the rights to feel angry about it. You do not have the rights to feel upset and jealous about it. Whatever hurt you may be feeling now is NOTHING compared to how you broke my heart terribly into pieces. But I still loved you, loved you so fucking much that it hurts. Nobody has ever given me such wonderful memories like you did, I admit that.  But the memories won't last long if you don't even see a future with me. I'm not all about it and I knew. It was very difficult for me to move on, I cling on you.  But not anymore, you're no longer relevant in my life. I know my worth. It's sad that I didn't know it before this.  "Let's fuck lov...

 Three months has passed and here I am feeling so much better. So much better than the first month, than the second month when I was drowning in my heartache, pain and emotions. So much has happened for the past three months. So much more important things in my life than you. You gave me wonderful memories, bittersweet memories. I love you, and I will always do.  I will miss the times we've spent together. I will miss your love towards me and how you made me feel so loved. I'll miss your hugs and kisses, I'll miss the memories we had together. But I will never forget how you didn't love me enough like I how I loved you then. I will never forget that after all that we've been through, you never stood up for me. I will never forget that you broke my heart not just once but twice, thrice and more. I will never forget the fact that you actually lie often about the smallest things just to save yourself. A pathological liar you were, a pathological liar you are. I'm s...