I am Alina Hazeman.

He'd take the world off my shoulders If it was ever hard to move He'd turn the rain to a rainbow When I was living in the blue Why then, if he is so perfect Do I still wish that it was you? Perfect don't mean that it's working So what can I do?  When you're out of sight In my mind 'Cause sometimes I look in his eyes And that's where I find a glimpse of us And I try to fall for his touch But I'm thinking of the way it was Said I'm fine and said I moved on I'm only here passing time in his arms Hoping I'll find A glimpse of us Tell me she savors your glory Does she laugh the way I did? Is this a part of your story? One that I had never lived Maybe one day you'll feel lonely And in her eyes, you'll get a glimpse Maybe you'll start slipping slowly And find me again When you're out of sight In my mind - Joji 

 Playing the same song,  Again and again, On loop, Without realizing the time, It's almost an hour. Where did the time go? When we're so drowned, Drowned in our own emotions, Drowned in our own pains,  We'll never realize how time flies really fast. Please heal.

 People can be so mean.  So mean that they take advantage on other's kindness, Take advantage on people's heart, We love and we are full of love, Yet people take advantage on our big hearts, After all what's been through, They still chose to use us, That just proves how little compassion they have, Proves how much of ego they have within themselves, Also, That proves who we are,  We are capable of love and we value, Value and appreciate people, Regardless even when they take advantage of us, Are we weak? No we are not. We are strong. Very strong that we're able to provide love, Even if they're not worthy of our love. Who's the weak one then? They are. They don't seem to value us. Then the rest questions us, Where's our value? How about our dignity? We tell them, This is our value, This is our dignity, And we do not need to explain further, When only ourselves and only God knows who we are.

I really don’t get why people have to be arrogant. Silly me I always thought that arrogant people were confident. I was totally wrong. But then again, people can also be confident yet arrogant at the same time. That doesn’t mean that all confident people are humble. There can be stuck up ones too. Anyways, talking about arrogance vs confidence. Arrogance mostly derives from insecure people. They become arrogant and always think they’re the right ones, without argument. They’re so insecure that they gotta filter that with an arrogant attitude. I’ve also met people who are only arrogant to certain people, yet they’re humble with people they know. I don’t know what to say about this one, but I think it’s just a matter of preference. Confidence simply means that a person is brave enough to step up, and even when they know they’re wrong, they’re able to accept it, learn from it, grow and move forward. Unlike arrogant people, who simply can’t accept it when somebody points out their wrongdoi...

 After so long I've not been to any sets, it was last night. The night that I prayed to God to keep me away from harm and evil, to let things go smoothly, to keep me away from any evil eyes. Even recited Al-Fatihah before getting out from the car.   10.37PM, I stepped in to the venue. Saw her, walked over to her and introduced myself. “Hi, I’m Alina” and smiled. She looked at me as though she knew me, but I couldn’t really figure out who she was so I just kept quiet. One of the first things she said to me was “Wah, bulu mata dia panjang betul, takut aku tengok”. She said it in a nice way, a friendly way. All I did was smiled.   Sat down with her, to show her the dresses I brought. She was busy. I looked at her face as she was busy typing on her phone. She looked so familiar, as though i’ve seen her somewhere before and she really looked like that wardrobe bitch that I shouted at in public. That WAS her. How I knew? I asked her if she’s the casting producer or what. And sh...

 Places I go, Things I do, There never will be a day that I don't think of you, You're always there with me, In my mind, In my heart, No matter what. We complement each other so good, I miss how well we both get along, I miss how crazy we can be together, Oh how I miss us being together. I miss you so much.

 We spent wonderful moments together, We created wonderful memories together, Memories that nobody ever had with us, But just us, Only you and I know what we had, With one another, And nobody else, Because the bond we had was special, I felt it, And you felt it too, I don't know if anybody's able to replace that, What we had was only between us, Only we both know that, No matter what, I'll always be grateful for you, You were the best lover I could have ever asked for, No matter what our paths are, I'll always love you, for you.

 Sometimes I wonder, Why do we reject what our body needs? When we're tired, exhausted,  Our body needs rest, Our mind needs rest, But why do we still not listen to our body? Sometimes we choose to ignore, And then the exhaustion gets worst, Then we fall sick. Just because we're stubborn, Stubborn to listen to what our body needs, We complicate things so much, Until it affects our well-being. I'm sorry dear body, I'm sorry dear mind, And I'm sorry dear heart. I promise you, that everything will be alright. Inshaallah.