Never Enough For Anybody

 When I've been there for you,

Sacrificed my time, energy and tears for you,

Gave you my support, cheering for you,

During your down times,

And now you've risen up like a superstar,

You're almost well-equipped.

You said that you were grateful, 

You cared for me,

You loved me.

I never expected anything in return,

Because for me, 

I am doing everything in return for you,

For what you've done for me,

When you gave me your time and energy,

While I was with you. 

Because I was so happy that it all came true,

That it all happened,

I didn't know how else to return my favour to you,

So by being there for you,

Was the least I could do for you.

But why?

Why push me away?

And why are you so greedy?

Greedy as though I didn't do enough for you?

We were never in a romantic relationship,

Yes we said our "I love you",

But the question never raised by you.

But why did it affected me so much?

I never had feelings,

Until you made me.

"Don't fall inlove with me" 

Was what I said before our final goodbye in person.

But you did.

I never did,

But it grew inside of me.

And I feel like I've been groomed.

After what I've done,

It's just never enough for anybody.

They always want more.

To be precise,

They can even complain that it's a "sexless relationship".

Out of the blue.

They say they want to "have fun",

And they make you feel as though you're the problem,

As though you're controlling them,

Just because they know you started to have feelings towards them too,

Am I really being groomed?

Such an idiot.

For being groomed of something I never intended.

It's hard to trust anybody these days. 

I'm upset, broken and disappointed by someone who I called my "monkey best friend".