Abbastanza

 Today marks the day that I fully want to protect my soul, my inner peace from cutting you out completely out of my life. It's getting too much of trying to argue about silly things. It's so small, but you make it big. Just because I was busy not replying to your text for about 10 to 20 minutes, and you, out of all people, a bloody 57 year old gets mad? It's ridiculous. I didn't sign up for this shit. It's been over a year I've known you, and majority of the time is me dealing with your grumpy-ass angry attitude for no apparent reason. I've been too kind with you, that I've gotten myself in distress.

I don't want to hear from you anymore as I've given you too many chances to speak kindly with me. I can't imagine staying with you, and you having this ridiculous angry behaviour. I think you might even kill me. I don't want to go against God's will and plans. It's best that I completely erase myself out of your life, and vice versa. I'll try my best to only remember you as the person who's treated me well while I was there. I know it's quite impossible, because even after I left your city, you already started calling me harsh names just because I was enjoying myself in another city. 

All the red flags were there from the very beginning. But as I said, I've just been too kind with you. It's time to let you completely go, and allow myself to be kind to myself. I hate receiving angry texts from you bringing about the past, and calling me names. It makes me anxious, and my heart starts beating very fast. Today was the first time I decided to block you completely everywhere to allow myself to be calm. And it's the first time that I felt peace too when I blocked you. I believe it's the best for both of us. If I ever decide to come visit Italy again, I will think twice if I want to contact you again or not. Because it is not necessary anymore, especially looking at this situation. 

I've been wronged my whole life to think that if a man is much older than me, then it means that they're much more mature than me in so many ways. But I was wrong. I've concluded that men are all the same regardless of their age. Even before meeting you, I was still doubting. Maybe I'm wrong? But now it's all obvious that I'm right. You say I've done nothing for you? Wow, really. Okay then. After everything I've done. Please don't come back to my life. Even my ex lover never treated me as bad as you. He was Love, unlike you.